At the Beginning....

    About a year ago, my 12 year old son Brogan told me that he was going to pray for twins. I thought it was interesting because ever since I was a little girl, I felt like I was going to have twins someday. But when my brother had twins 4 years ago, I felt it even less likely that I would have them. Truthfully, I can honestly say that I have always known I would have them. This brings us to Feb 10, 2019 when I ran up to Dollar general to get some milk and and other small Items. While walking through the store, I started realizing how fatigued I was. I felt like I was wearing a wet blanket and completely exhausted. After seeing the pregnancy test on the shelf and immediately recallling the multiple times that my 9 year old, Bennett, pointed to my stomach and said, “Mom, you pregnant. It’s a fact.”.... I KNEW I was pregnant. I got excited and nervous and took 3 tests up to the counter. As I was bouncing around waiting in line, A large, happy woman behind me leaned in and asked, “Would this be good news, or bad news?”. I smiled and said definitely great news. She then said, “Well, you’re about to have twin baby girls”. I got the happiest feeling and ran home to take the test. All 3 tests were positive. Four days later, We took the Boys out for Dinner at a BBQ place in Williston. After dinner, we gave the boys a “Valentines Day” card where we told them that baby #5 is on the way. They were all SO excited and surprised. Each one of them was happy. The next day is when Brogan started saying it was twins. I would just smile and not really feed into it. I even heard him tell a friend on the phone that we had twins on the way. There wasn’t a doubt in his mind. Right around that time, Ben and I were able to go to the temple together. While in the celestial room, Ben said a quiet payer for us. As he prayed for “the baby” inside of me, I was immediately overcome and knew with a surety that there was more than one baby inside of me. I knew it from the bottom of my heart. From that point on, I was talking to the babies. Addressing them as 2 babies.
         Fast Forward to an appointment with  a wonderful PA in my ward. I asked if he could just refer me out for an ultrasound, quite frankly so I could put this twins thing to rest. I was in the ultrasound room at 7am the next morning. As soon as a layed down on the table, I jokingly told her that my son thinks its twins. She laughed as she placed the gel on my belly. As she looked around for the baby, She got a shocked look on her face and looked at me and said, “Is he psychic? There are two babies”. I just smiled, and cried, and smiled, and cried. The tears were coming because I could feel Heavenly Fathers arms wrapped so tightly around me. I quickly got Ben on FaceTime and told him the news. I think his reaction was happiness mixed with shock. I then called my mom at 4:30am her time. She said she was already awake lying in bed. Her reaction was pretty great. Also Shock. Identical twins.... I felt like I hit the lottery. Our whole famiy felt that way. The boys were thrilled. Not surprisingly, Brogan was not shocked but the other two were. What a blessing! I think Ive had every emotion run through my head.
        While we feel nothing but joy and excitement, along with the news of having identical twins, we also learn the rarity of these types of twins. As I have recently learned, there is a rare set of identical twins that come from when the egg splits extremely late, after it has been attached to the uterine wall. These types of twins share a placenta AND an amniotic sac. Along with this can come complications. I made the mistake of getting on Google where statistics and stories were quite frightening. After finding a support group online and A LOT of conversations with Heavenly Father, I have arrived at a place of peace an submission. I can do all things through Christ. All that matters is that he has already given me these two beautiful babies inside of me that will be mine for eternity. This is a joyous occasion. I look forward to bringing these babies here no matter how hard or how big the sacrifice. I can do this.
     Ive been prompted to document this journey. To record my thoughts, feeling and impressions As I go through his pregnancy. All the Hard moments, and more importantly, all the miracles along the way.